Oh, that's awesome! !! I used to to a church who had a massive food bank ministry. I can't remember how many hundreds of folks we were privileged to help. My current church has partnered with another church to go out into the community to help feed them and minister to them in anyway we can all free. I get down on myself as well. I have 70 or so to loose. And like you, I get tired of trying. I has decided that diets just make life more difficult. I think eating healthy and in moderation is probably the best route. I haven't accomplished this yet but I'm working on it.